It's been 2 weeks since my sister cut me off. After week one she unfriended me on Facebook. At week 2 she sends me an email saying nothing she hasn't said about all this except to try to justify it all.
Please tell me I'm not crazy here. I think she has some Borderline issues, maybe narcisism?
(Her daughters are Raeghan and Ries. Ries was the one vomiting that I refused to keep so she could go out of town. Her husband moved to FL 2 days prior for a new job, they aren't splitting up or anything. Becky is the friend who was originally supposed to keep Ries. Nola is her dog.)
"You say you were willing to look after Nola but from my end it seemed like you were seriously put out, borderline unwilling and that really bothered me. I didn't feel like you were "just ask questions" - it's like you were looking for any way to get out of it. I even was willing to make her stay outside the whole time so it wouldn't be such an inconvenience to you and in the end I had to have Becky drive 20 minutes to come take care of her for me. Waiting until I arrived to tell me to make other arrangements was nothing short of mean. It felt like you didn't want me to be able to go.
It HURT me that you weren't willing to help me out. Rieslin wanted to go to your house, not Becky's because she didn't feel well. It didn't matter that her kids had already been exposed, all that seemed to matter was that your ego was bruised because she wasn't staying with you in the first place.
I overreacted, I already apologized for saying "**** you" whether you realized it or not. To say that I won't apologize because I "just don't do that" is unfair and hurtful. I have apologized to you MANY times. When I am wrong I admit it. I think as my sister and friend it should be pretty easy to see why I overreacted - my husband had just left and I'm essentially a single mom, I'm newly pregnant, I was trying to do something with the bigs and they would have been devastated if it got canceled (because, you know, their DAD just moved to FL the day before) and I needed support. And all you could seem to think about was how hurt you were that you I asked B to keep Ries.
I am not a bad mom for leaving Ries - I KNEW she would be ok ( and she was, she never puked again and was fine within hours) I am a good mom for making a VERY hard decision so that my Raeghan would not have been at the Ramp without me. She NEEDED me to be there, and I knew that.
When you sent me that text about Suzanne not needing my help it felt like you were trying to tell me I didn't deserve to go, and that enraged me because I just.needed.your.help and you weren't willing to be there for me.
And THEN you slammed me on facebook - PUBLICLY. We both know how YOU would have felt, why then is it ok for you to do that to me?
I'm so incredibly hurt by the way you have treated me. I really need you to step back and see that I am human. Yes, you have a lot, and I hope you know I have tried to be there for you, but I have **** too, and when Ries got sick, and I wasn't sure what to do because the bigs NEEDED to go, I really needed someone to say "I got your back. We'll make this work!""
For what it's worth I never slammed her on FB. I was vaugebooking, I never mentioned her, only how I was feeling.
My response to her email was this:
I apologize if my actions hurt you. Neither of us were at our best in that whole ordeal. But I honestly didn't mean to hurt you. We really miss you and the kids. If nothing else I'd love to forget about all of this and move on even if only for their sakes. I love you. I don't feel comfortable going into detail about my side of all this in an email. Let me know if you want to talk about it. If not, I'm okay with that to. I'd love to see your face.
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Last edited by HabitualQuitter; Jun 21, 2013 at 02:43 PM.
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