I have decided that unless I somehow become suicidal or start having hallucinations or some other serious issues, I'm not going on medication for my anxiety and panic. I just can't get past the side effects. I made it 5 days on the Zoloft, but once I increased it I couldn't eat. It made me nauseated and jumpy. I'm thinkin' "why do you give this to someone that has anxiety when it makes that worse?" but I know for some it does help.

I have issues with eating anyway. If I'm nervous I have to force myself to eat. It's not that I have a problem thinking I'm too heavy, I just feel like I'll be sick if I eat.

My daughter (who is 7) saw me in the shower yesterday and said "mommy, you need to EAT, your bones are showing!" and I had a doctor ask me if I'm anorexic once. I told him I'm not doing it on purpose. I think some of it may have to do with the fact that the only time I was in the room with my mean stepfather was for dinner. The rest of the time I had to stay in my room. Great association there huh?