Hey Girl, well all this you've mentioned is typical...entirely to typical, yet your own thing..ya know. You've obvisouly relapse, no need to point out the obvious, and of course it's difficult to feel guilty because it feels so damn good! But in reality, I think you know what's happening, and you know you've messed up. This seems serious to me, the alcohol is corrupting your body. Your so young to, imagine what it would be like in 10 years....not good.

There's not much anybody can say, you know that I'm sure. I'm sure you're aware of the steps. When you fall off with the steps, you basically need to start back at point 1. I think you're already aware there's a problem, so of course going up would benefit you.

I agree that treatment would help you out. Don't waste time considering it, just do it. People sometimes forget, because of responsibility. But you have to think, I won't be around to accomplish them anyway, if I don't receive help.

You know what you need to do, you're intelligent. Of course reaching out for support, I understand and I hope somebody says something that motivates you to get that ball rolling.

I really wish you luck and hope hope hope, you will be okay. I believe you could do whats right, with some hard work of course.

Be careful Girl, stay safe okay.