I think the decision to admit you was fair. It sounds like you, maybe, have an axis 1 disorder that you're unaware that you even have it.

Do you have care now? A psychiatrist? The availability of drugs that can actually help now is pretty amazing.

I'm sorry where you spent your birthday... but had you not been stopped, you might not have had another birthday... ever , and you're very young to know how everything will turn out and what can help you.

Good luck.