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Originally Posted by heyitsme7
well when i wake up, I often feel like i should be isolated from the world. I feel like I'm afraid of walking out of my house because then people who drive by will know where I live and my friends whom i hardly cross paths with will be able to recognize my house. So, I try to not go out so much. Plus, after watching porn, I feel like I don't want to come out into the world again. I would be pretty cautious because it seems like people are condemning me for that kind of behavior. They act like they don't have any addictions whatsoever. They look at you with downright mean eyes and I'm just thinking,"Is it just me, or did that man/woman just glare at me?"
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I think you need an MD p-doc for paranoid ideation.
I think that the main reason SO many of us have been utter failures trying to get through to you is because of your paranoid ideation. Everything that has been said so far in various attempts to get through to you has been said with the hope that logic would have some positive effect on you, but it wouldn't since logic is pretty much hopeless against strong paranoid ideation.
Did you say all of that (quotation above) to your school therapist? What did he say in response?
I am sorry but it seems that you do need antipsychotics because therapy alone won't fix this issue. It would be good to see a p-doc (psychiatrist) who specializes in adolescents, since pharmacotherapy in your age group is trickier than in the adult group.
You probably need a combination of T and antipsychotics.