i found watching films like Lorenzos oil, beaches or ones about parents fighting to find a cure for their dying children seemed to work too! seemed like watching what other parents would do for their children made me realise just how awful mine were and i would actualy feel deeply sorry for myself and cry really hard. i still find it difficult to make any sound when i cry, but the tears were like fountains for quite a long time once they began.

be kind to yourself, they will come eventually, when you are in a place where you feel safe x