I'm not sure what happened, but I went from zero to bat-**** crazy in 2 seconds flat earlier tonight. I was ok all day, I would even go so far as to say I had a good day (though I felt like bawling my eyes out for no discernible reason all day, but I wasn't attaching it to any emotion, so the day was pretty good). Then as I was putting the dishes away, I suddenly wanted to use the knives on myself and shatter every plate in the dishwasher. It lasted only a few minutes, but it was so intense and so sudden... and it seemingly came out of nowhere. I'm glad my wife was there and put the sharps away for me without really asking why. And she left me to go work on art with music screaming in my ears... I just can't connect any triggers. Kitchen knives are not normally anything I have issues with. It just seems like my brain can't handle "happy" so it has to slam me down hard and fast.