Life for me has always been a struggle. In my teen years I enjoyed fighting to ease stress & to keep people from messing with me. As I grew older I found more pleasure in manipulation and totally messing with people's heads. Most people are easy. And screwing with people isn't against the law. Lately I find myself losing self control when provoked & even letting myself act the same way. I came so close to ripping this girls face off a couple days ago that I am scared next time I won't be able to stop myself. I don't generally like people, but physical violence if for those who aren't capable of self control & that's not who I am. Our so I thought. I'm afraid I may be becoming dangerous & don't know how to make it stop. Any advice on this? I may be mentally ill, but I'm not an animal & I have children to set an example for. It came out of nowhere & don't know what triggered it.