I am a 21-year-old senior in college - a nursing student. I just feel like I am so incapable of life. I am a total mess and I just feel so distressed, overwhelmed and depressed. I haven't been diagnosed with ADD yet, but my instructor sure seems to think I might have it; she called me in for a private meeting and urged me to get evaluated for it, and also to get on meds. Anyway, I am really just generally just scattered and I am distressed by the way my mind works, and the way it is constantly cluttered with incomplete and never-ending thoughts. Something just seems to be wrong with my brain and it feels like I am thinking of everything all at once! Everything I own mirrors the sheer chaos in my mind. I sit down and watch TV and DVDs (Lisence to Drive with Corey Haim is my favorite) a lot, listen to music alot, but I never really feel relaxed or calm you know. I keep locking my keys in my car; I mean I have locked the keys in my car twice month alone. I am having low-self esteem, and feeling like I hate myself and like I am a total loser, and wondering why I can't just be like everyone else. I am having trouble expressing my self and keeping up in conversations. My mind is drifting even when I don't mean for it to. I am stammering alot over my words, not saying or doing things in the right order, forgetting what I am talking about, and forgetting the right words and the names for things. I also get like impulses to say or do things and lose things very easily and get side--tracked alot and can't seem to get anything done. And my memory is just a mess. I am worse than Dory from Finding Nemo, and this is making doing question and answer assignments a total chore for me. I have to keep reading a question over and over again b/c I forget it like a split second after reading it. I find my mind drifting into space alot and I feel just unmotivated and just unfocused; I can't plan or organize anything, and I have always been that way. I am always making myself look and feel like a total idiot , dumby, slow-poke, weirdo, space cadet, etc. I don't know if this is ADD or not since I have noticed that my problems have recently gotten The sad thing is that I have been dealing with chronic constipation with no known medical cause ever since forever now and I wonder if it has been somehow linked to undiagnosed ADD all this time, if I have it? I'm not sure if the symptoms I am describing are ADD since I am just really noticing how bad they are.