I'm so tired...so sick of being strong!

like ..."hey I coped today!!"

coped with what?

..."coped with being pathetic paranoid and hopeless!"

..like that's a gift!

..and the HORROR of the abstract genius assembling the dis-assembled!

I can barely handle myself I know I will miss out on the true reasons for living!

...those being...??

letting ourselves go!... tears laughter, hugs things hugging things and people being excited!?!?
I don't know but it's hell better than this sadistic hypnotic suspension inside hells dirty emotional underpants!