today i was not stressed but just half hour ago my friend tried to lecture me how my whole career is going to hell and all... but i think this self destructive behavior of mine was due to bipolar. i am not depressed/manic now and i am trying to recover my life as best as i can... ok, i don't have much money right now but i don't think i am alone here who has that problem... maybe someday i will be rich.. but even then life will be equally meaningless... maybe someday i will get married, we will have cute daughter and i will get golden retriever... i would prefer that to being rich... bipolar taught me at least that... i got my priorities straight... and if i have less money and those so called normal people, if they think i am loser, then they can just shove it... and i will get "boy" dog and i am going to name him "snow white" if my so called friends think it is crazy they can shove it too...