I'm really sorry you had to go through that. Those feelings are terrifying and make you feel as though you have lost all control of your mind and body.

Just a tip, if you have any warning, (it sounds like you didn't this time), stay away from mirrors. They can do some really odd things to your mind. There are days on which I know that if I look in the mirror, I will lost it. If I do look, I see a wild eyed psychopath and it scares me badly. Even though I'd never hurt anyone else, the person I see in the mirror looks like someone who would. It makes me distrust myself and sometimes I don't recognize myself. On those days, its best to keep from meeting your own eyes in the mirror. If you have to part your hair or whatever else, concentrate on that part of your body, but don't look in your own eyes.

You might want to start a journal of some sort and see if there is something that may trigger episodes like that. It may not help, but it can't hurt, and it may give you some insight into your own mind. Stay safe friend.

Sam2