Actually thanks to the advice I've gotten on this site from people and their commentary, I got the gerbils in my head running again and was able yesterday to sit down and talk to her about it all very calmly and clearly. It went very well, not anything like I expected. She told me that she could never do that to me, that it hurts to even think about doing it and she understands why I have my insecurities but to think about it. If she was gonna do something like that again why open up and be honest about the story to begin with? Why would she give me access to all her personal info if she was going to betray me? And that she appreciates my efforts to fix my insecurity and own up to it rather than try to blame her for it.

And to answer your question, I gave her a chance because I had confidence she would not do it to me in the beginning. I think that confidence came from the very good job I had at the time. Money makes you feel very good about yourself and when I had to give it up to keep my grades up, I think some of my self esteem went with it. She assures me that she doesn't care about money and respects me for my decision for the sake of school. But I think that really wounded my self esteem.