I am constantly jumping back on the wagon. It ruins my metabolism, ruins my nutrition, ruins my performance and I am in a competition tomorrow. I am going to be surrounded by ripped,leaned athletes and then there is me who can never lean out because I eat lots of food and throw it up. But I am so euphoric when I do it. I can not handle a weeks worth of ...well...life without it. Well I guess it is better than having to hide the burn marks.