And I hate this feeling, this hopelessness, this sadness. I just hate everything and almost everybody when I feel like this.
I need to get this out of my mind.
A big part (there is a lot more to it than just this, but that is for another post) of my current "mental situation" is that I lost 2 babies in a 2 years period.
Most of you that know me, know that I have a beautiful 7 years old daughter. Well, my husband and I tried really hard to give her a sibling.
It literally broke our hearts, it shattered our faith, it left us feeling empty, angry and with a lot of resentment.
I'm not telling this because I need somebody to tell me how to deal with it.
Today I'm feeling, today I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm crying and this is all I want to do today.
Tomorrow I'll find the strength to get up and start my day.
But today....
I just want to feel and wonder how my life would be today...