Well I know my T is sick of calling me because the last time I talked to her she "suggested" that I call a battered woman's hotline. I'm not a frickin battered woman and I pay to talk to my T and don't want to call some stupid hotline. And this pissed me off and made me feel rejected which is making me feel even more needy and now the uncertainty of everything going on with H. I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to slash my wrists. I want to drink myself into a stupor. I want to go and curl up in the bathtub and lock the door and ignore everything else that's going on in my house/life.