Recently, I have been trying to socialize, without much success in the world of perplexing human communication. All it is doing is causing frustration and stress. Right now, I am rediscovering just how mean, insensitive and judgemental people can be. In the past, I was always the target, because of my naive and serious nature. This is the main reason, I chose to live as a recluse in my early twenties.

Now, I am in school so it is hard to live a reclusive life. I want to work in research and need some people skills. This is why I am doing this, not to amass 'friends'. All I seem to be doing is alienating people or being mislead because I cannot read nonverbal cues very well. People are wearing me out so much, I am ready to return to my old ways.

My lack of success really hurts. Misanthropy is very appealing right now.