I was doing well for a while but since returning home have slipped up again. I don't have a routine these days in addition to the stress of finding a job and getting into school (could college be any more of a nightmare?) has led to a lot of stress binging and purging. Then I realize school is going to start in a few weeks and I kind of freak out, like how could I even show up there being this size, this huge, disgusting, freakish size? Yes, the ED is talking again and holding my life hostage...