Is it possible to have alter's and not be aware of them?

Is it possible to have alter's that refer to yourself in your real 'maiden' name?

Or it that just different states of mind?

A functional day?

Woke up yesterday feeling completely different. Years ago I was studying IT as it was something that just clicked in my head and I was obsessed with it, had computer parts all over my house etc. Before finishing the course I suddenly couldn't remember or understand any of it and so I just stopped doing it and when other's would say what the hell is wrong with you just finish it, why won't you finish it I couldn't give an answer, I never had an answer for I don't understand it any more. I had thrown every computer part I had around my house to the dump. But now I remember all of it and my head is full of the inner images of hard drives, circuity etc. Have an urge to upgrade my computer as suddenly as I suddenly find it as far to outdated where I had always seen it as suits my needs. Also I suddenly started changing things in my house. Which I have noticed I have done many times before, such as bring plants inside, opening blinds to let the sunlight in and an urge to clean my house almost to OCD standards like I used to be back then. Went shopping for a couple of hours without fear yesterday and even there the direction of what I was to buy changed three times.

I found myself referring to myself in my maiden name this morning... Standing at the sink saying to myself "I am (first name and maiden name) and I can do anything" Like where does that stuff come from? At the moment I can only remember all the good times I've had around people where normally I can't remember any of them.

I am not sure if its a switch in an alter that I never knew I had or if its got something to do with trying to bring back pass memories. I have never thought of having any alter's and still don't just wondering if maybe it is... or maybe its as simple as all the positive affirmations that surrounded me and just suddenly repeating it... or maybe even its been triggered by babysitting my baby niece for a few hours each night and knowing that someone in my family is trusting me with their most precious gift. Which has made me feel worth something. (It's funny my sister feels she must pay me for it but babysitting my niece gives me more than she could ever know to my confidence and worthiness)

Is it possible that getting the right sort of treatment know could be making me aware of the differences or am I imagining everything and its not real or maybe I'm convincing myself with the more other's are trying to help me understand myself?

It's like, I had already reported to my doctors the different states, the time lost etc etc so I know I'm not imagining everything as the symptoms are there before I'd ever even heard of it.

Maybe with knowledge it just allows it to be seen more? So confused, maybe its just what I've always called it in the past, A good day? and the learning about and trying to understand myself is inventing it?

Does anyone else ever get confused like this?

What is it? In 4 days time I have my next appointment with my psychologist and I want to ask her about this confusion but I'm also a little worried that I won't be having 'a good day' on that day too and won't know how to ask her or talk about it or even if I will end up asking at all -shrugs-

Maybe I'm just becoming aware of different states in my personality and memories?

When things go wrong, I always find myself saying don't worry about it everything fixes itself just sit back and wait for the universe to fix it and it will go away and it does always get fixed at some point... Maybe just maybe I do have alter's doing it for me? Maybe that's why I feel like everything just gets fixed by itself just sit back and wait for it.

I don't know... is that even possible?