Trigger: small SUI statement

So, no move. I've sleep a good 20 hrs and feel drained, numb, and unable to think. We will continue to drive the 7 hrs. round trip 2x a month. Gist of the convo. my husband woke me up in the middle of the night, I think.

Husband: "I can't do this (move) without your confidence, I have to many concerns."

Me:"Either way anything we do it ends our relationship. I'm either selfish and it's my fault if anything happens staying here or we're at each others throats there. Either way I f*** everything up."

Husband: "Your not selfish"

Me: " If I make us stay I am, I'm out voted 2-1"

H: "Cute you know he (Miguel) doesn't count and I'm saying no because I'm to worried"

me: "you woke me up, now I'm hungry, are you sure we're staying?"

H: "yes."

Me: "Good, because I was only going if it was in a wooden box." The honestly I have when half asleep. Ate, went back to bed.
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This causes a whole new set of issues including AP I ask for but MH and housing isn't up in the air. We are still moving to Tampa bay in a year but we have time to prepare.