Hi Breemarie,

I understand where you are coming from as I have fought depression all my life. I guess it's something I will struggle with for the rest of my life.
I'm so sorry that you are also struggling. Are you on any antidepressants? If not, that might help you to cope. I have been on them for many years off and on and I can tell you that they make a big difference in my life. You may have to try several different ones before you find the right one but I bet there is one that will help.
I think you are right, some people don't want to hear about someone who is depressed as they are living happy lives and don't want to think about someone who isn't. I wish you could find one person who would listen and try and help you. Too bad your BF feels the way he does but maybe he just doesn't know what to do. Will he listen to you when you talk to him about it? If so, then sometimes talking things out helps.
I wish you all the luck in finding a doc to help you. Keep coming back and talking all you need to as we have been there and understand.
Take care of yourself,
Linda