I recently discovered why my life has been so chaotic for so many years....I am 33 years old and was just diagnosed with BPD a few months ago. I have 4 children by three different men. I have never been able to sustain a long term relationship or friendship....that is until I met my angel. My fiance stuck by me for two years of hell before I finally had my light bulb moment. For the first time in my life I had someone who set boundaries for me instead of letting me push or pull away. I left him about 4 months ago which was an event that lead towards me getting help. I packed up all the kids while he was at work one night and disappeared for 3 days. I changed my number and did anything else I could to run away from him. This man refused to let me leave this way....he made me be accountable for my reckless and selfish decision. He refused to give up on me....long story short, I came home and had a few more irrational outbursts before I was confronted with behavior that I could not ignore. I was tracking mileage on the car and spending hours trying to find something...anything that would prove that he was cheating on me. I put him thru HELL!! I am happy to say that I am in therapy twice a week and my fiance and I do couples therapy once a week. It is scary to confront all these issues and I fall often, but I am determined to become a healthier person and to stop allowing this disorder to control me!!