Before my diagnosis I would sit on the computer for hours searching for anything to prove that my fiance was cheating. I would go thru his phone constantly almost as if I hoped I would find something. This came back to bite me every single time....I would find the smallest thing and create my own story as to what it meant. It is terrible to spend your life waiting for the other shoe to drop or worse than that is creating the fall yourself because of self sabotage.