I've been having my share of problems lately to say the least....

Within the past week I've been seeing and hearing things that I know aren't really there. Black figures everywhere I look sometimes. It is to the point that I won't sleep at night because I know something is out to get me and WILL get me if I go to sleep. But if I do sleep it's with all the lights on and on the couch during the day. Now, when I look back between these 'episodes' I know it is silly, but at the time I am completely CONVINCED that there is some malicious being or beings after me. I told my therapist and he is quite concerned. Overall I just remain overly paranoid about something being after me all the time every hour of the day.

For the record, I haven't been sleeping much to speak of for the past month, sometimes not at all. I keep telling my Pdoc that I am not sleeping and he refuses to give me anything to sleep because he does not trust me with any sleeping meds anymore because I tend to be so suicidal with anything I am given and because he thinks I am an alcoholic (which, for the record, I have not had a drink in over a month). These new symptoms piled on top of all the sometimes violent moodswings and self-destructive thoughts I already have are making life so unbearable that I just sit in bed and cry every night.

I was just wondering if anyone had any advice or had had any similar experiences? Or if maybe I'm on my own here