Thx for sharing Breemarie I have some of the same things going on as well family and all. I think we have gotten some what closer. My big sister has kind of taken on the mom roll. Me and my sister were NEVER close, I mean NEVER, and it's kind of strange how a death of a loved one can bring people together that rarely talk. I talk to her just about everyday. I am so grateful for her and she has held it all together for all of us. I just want her to be able to grieve as well and not feel that she has to hide it for our sake. Holidays are here and so far it has been very rough for me. I know shes looking down on all of us so I should be happy right?