I got some news yesterday about a trigger of mine. This morning I woke up very sad, crying and dwelling on the unfairness of it all. I happened to catch Joel Olsten and got the message to change the way I attacked a problem in my life. Instead of doing what I normally would do, which is wallow in my sadness and send a message to those who knowingly hurt me again, I will have to find another way to express how terrible I think this news is and how it destroys me every time it happens. This check in is the beginning of that. Later today, I'll open my thread and spill it out in the best way I know how, but I won't reach out to those who've hurt me to let them know.

That is a big change for me.