Interesting, Dionysus-I don't think that the family and husband are everything, but they are the only missing pieces at this point in my life. It's what I value and what I find meaningful, if that makes any sense.

I'm dreading having her come. I keep throwing around thoughts or excuses as to what I can say to get out of it. I won't, of course, since has her plans set in stone. It's not fair.

Idk why, but I'd just rather be by myself. I find that having people over to my apartment is somewhat intrusive and idk why- I never grew up like that. I love to entertain at my parents' house. I just don't want people here. Now, I'm dreading the next few hours go by slow...to put off the inevitable.