Been on the depakote for something like a month, still not stable.
Crazy repeating dreams when I do sleep, and I feel like the eye of a tornado when I'm awake.
I keep dreaming about 2 things.
1) escaping (usually psych hospitals, etc.)
2) dying/being shot (is it instant? slow death? I have questions.)
everything inside me is numb, but when I engage the world around me I must go go go, ask every question, leave no stone unturned!
I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I feel like I should just die because I'll end up failing anyway, and I don't want to live another 20 years anyways.
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Schizoaffective - Bipolar Type
Lithium, 300mg
Prozac 20mg
Geodon, 160mg.
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