When people cannot talk it is sometimes because speech isn't their strength. I know about people who are much better than me at other things, but they are bad at verbalizing.

If this is not the case, it could well be the issue I have. Everything is a big blob of everything. I have no idea where the starting point is. People ask me "what is your story?". I don't have one, my life universe is like a blob, it is not a point to point narrative.

The people who actually have helped have done a little what people have done in this thread. They have asked questions and guided me. A question is much easier to answer than "tell me about yourself" which is impossible IMO. I don't know how people make priorities. Everything about me is equally important.

These days guidance is seen as an ugly thing, like you lose control. I don't see it like that at all. I more see it as a dog for the blind, it helps you go where you want to go.

I struggle a lot with my own "creativity". I cannot yet understand it exists in me, because I heard a lot the last five years or so that people like me are like robots, they are not creative. And when I tried some writing exercises just for fun, a friend I trusted told me I SUCKED. Gee thanx....