I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. That aching may be from the past. It's hard to have someone challenge our beliefs about our pasts. I remember when I first realized that I didn't come from the kind of household I had told myself I did for so many years. I remember aching about that. It was very hard to face the fact that I had been deluding myself about my life for as long as I could remember. I had to redefine everything and it was intense. You may be wrestling with all she said and trying to make sense of it. Try to be gentle with yourself. I think mulling over what she said is appropriate. It sounds like something that needs time to process. Again just try to be gentle with yourself and if you need to call her, do it. Take care of yourself! Annie