Hello. I just got out of a three year relationship that changed my life and relocated me and whatnot. We broke up a little bit more than a month ago.

I guess because of my ADD, time moves extra slowly for me and I get really restless. Because of my major depressive disorder I feel lethargic and sometimes stare at my tv without even comprehending what I am watching. Because of my anxiety disorder though, being alone freaks me out. What if I try to kill myself? Who is going to call 9-1-1?

Yet, I honestly don't feel like dating anyone. I am not ready and I feel sooooo pessimistic about ever having a happy relationship. My self esteem is **** and I don't trust myself to choose another partner. I stopped sticking up for myself towards the end of my relationship and my self esteem is the blame. I just felt like no one else will love me and I have to make this work.

I need advice. I am uncomfortable with living even though everything is great. I moved out of my old apartment that my ex and I shared and I now live completely alone. Yet, I just feel these nasty bit of emotions. I feel like becoming an alcoholic again.