Maureen, it takes a special kind of lover to be us. So hang in there, try on some love again. Reaching out there is not sin. Sin is regretting yourself, telling yourself you are washed up useless and never again will you have deserve any one good thing ever. B.P. programs that feature. The way out of that relationship loop is self-esteem. Even "sin" has a way out for us. We can't paint dirty words upon every action fullfilling the needs we have especially with the B.P. Don't you think that we have a gift with this ailment? Don't we have yards of feelings that we know well over the years (me going on 47)

Slut, No! The more the world screams loudly to me, I have to step back, and re-evaluate my intentions- if I see that I am doing good and all than I relax and ignore the loud words that I hear such as "You have to date one boy at a time. It has to be done this way because this is the "one " tried true way to get it done, there are rules and must be followed to be a good girl. etc.

Does anybody on the board know what codependency is? It is illfitting marriages that probably "never" should have been, but "became" THE SOCIAL MORES WERE VALUED TO THE POINT OF people all people especially every and all types (how many types are there of people and to have "One Right Way that it is done for this" Can some one do some logic here. What moral truth, what logical truth exists in the fallacy? Has my friend Maggie's rules of order began to banish all sane survival approaches? Are people to follow the dictates of other people in choosing the one to share a small house with that is 600 sq. ft for the next 45 years. Someone please be logical.

Choosing a mate is serious business for everyone. No one please tell me "no one " Only one rule of conduct applies to all.

I am not a slut. I am being choosy. I am dating a bunch of men I know from here and there for a while. I am a moral lady. I am a gifted great unusual lady and so are all of you. Get off the pot though and get real.

I don;t like russian rullette especially with mates and getting invloved. I would rather be honest and kick a bunch of guys to the curb- preserve my sanity----- and theirs too in the long run--maybe even find somebody----kind of sorta of closer to compatable. Aint I worth that much ?

I have tried it the other way myself, and with B.P. it is like wearing an advertisment on my back that says "Beat me, Im yours "

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