I know what you're going through because I recently terminated therapy with my long-term therapist. I have been therapy-free for three months and I feel pretty good about it. When she first brought up the idea of termination, she gave me an approximate time of 6 months to taper off. I felt devastated! I was in a panic for a bit and then, with time, and help from T, I gradually was able to accept it and see it as not only an inevitable thing, but also a positive step towards personal growth. I had worked on so many things with her in therapy for all those years, but I was still very attached and the thought of losing her was unbearable to me. But I realized that everything changes in life, we cant go on in therapy forever, and most importantly, i wasn't really losing her. True, I wont be seeing her anymore, but she is still out there, and she will always care for me, as I will her. My therapist also will allow me to come back to her for short periods of therapy if i need to. I know I can go back if something comes up that I need help with. But, the truth is, I don't need regular therapy anymore. Life is never going to be easy, there are always problems and feelings to contend with. There is this feeling of freedom knowing that I can take care of myself, with a little help from my family and friends. My life is what I decide to make it. Honestly, living all those years in fear of termination was a waste of time. I am okay. my T does allow contact, but of course it's not therapy, just touching base and saying hi is great. We are still connected, but I have grown. So Rainbow, the way you feel about termination today may not be how you feel in 6 months. Give it time for the idea to sink in and for you to come to terms with it, and accept it.