True, I wont be seeing her anymore, but she is still out there, and she will always care for me, as I will her. My therapist also will allow me to come back to her for short periods of therapy if i need to. I know I can go back if something comes up that I need help with. But, the truth is, I don't need regular therapy anymore. Life is never going to be easy, there are always problems and feelings to contend with. There is this feeling of freedom knowing that I can take care of myself, with a little help from my family and friends. My life is what I decide to make it. Honestly, living all those years in fear of termination was a waste of time. I am okay. my T does allow contact, but of course it's not therapy, just touching base and saying hi is great. We are still connected, but I have grown. So Rainbow, the way you feel about termination today may not be how you feel in 6 months. Give it time for the idea to sink in and for you to come to terms with it, and accept it.