Seems a lot of us are feeling the same way today. Misskeena, I could have written your post, many days. I'm having a lot of dark thoughts today too. I would never act on them. But sometimes, it seems it would be easier. Or that I deserve it.

I'm having a rough day today. I started new meds on Thursday. Friday and Saturday, i felt awesome. well. had side effects. but emotionally, I was happy and with it. Well. then I thought, well. it can't be the meds working that quickly, it must just be me! I can do this! So. I didn't take them Last night. This morning? down in the dumps and crabby. Then one of my big triggers came up this morning, and now I am a mess. Alternating between angry and lashing out, to sad and depressed, to wanting to beat myself up because I am so worthless.