you can always try again. it's never too late to try again. do you have other supports? The longest I've gone was 1 year and 7 months... then I slipped. now I'm working to build up my days without. it can be quite a challenge. ((hugs))
are you in therapy for it? that might be helpful. Also, other means of expression might be a way to ease out of it. Let yourself be supported through this though. I know it's hard (I struggle with that myself), but letting others know when you are struggling can be helpful. If nothing else, they can lend and ear or a hand or a hug...