I've been having an OK day today. Didn't wake up with a crushing sense of doom, didn't have any emotional waves start crashing in, didn't have anything happen that triggered bad behavior. A surprisingly OK day - which is something that hasn't happened in a long time.

But...I was just in the bedroom folding laundry and I had an overwhelming urge to cut. I didn't feel anything in particular - it just seemed like the right thing to do.

This has never happened to me before without any warning of any kind and I don't understand. Now the emotional waves are starting to come in and I feel really discouraged and worthless. I must be really horrible and broken if I want to hurt myself as part of a "normal" day.