I'm super secretive about my moods too Pumpkin - my ups and my downs!

I've traditionally had multiple groups of friends; some I party with, others I chill with. Then when I'm in a down I will hang out more with the "chill" friends and when I'm in an up I spend time with the party crowd.

I've had sooo many people tell me over the years, on the odd chance that they've been me in a different mood-set than they're accustomed to, that I wasn't like me at all. I always responded with "Yes, this is me.. you just haven't seen me when I felt like talking/not-talking/whatever it was". So they'll only know me in one mind-set, and they'll just think I'm busy if they don't see me for weeks on end - because I'll keep in touch with texts and whatnot.

Even within those circles - I don't really express what I'm actually feeling at the time. If I'm depressed I'm pretty good at not displaying it.. and if I am displaying it, I can guarantee I'm feeling a lot worse. Same with when I'm in an up - if I'm bouncing all over the place and going non-stop, rest assured I'm actually working pretty dang hard to remain calm and collected! haha.