Hi - I just read your post. I am new to this site - looking for someone who has had the same experience as me. Trying to make sure I am not crazy. I have been married 32 years and have 7 fantastic children and 7 grandchildren. About 18 months ago I had a gut feeling that something was not right. He seemed to have a double life. After looking into his questionable financial decisions I discovered lots of porn on his phone (which he usually guarded like a loaded gun), lots of porn on our home computer linked to my husband. His biggest mistake was accidentally forgetting to log out of his ashleymadison account. I was devastated. He then started seeing a female psychic and they fell in love. They both admitted it, but told me they will just remain friends. My husband does not want a divorce. They said they have that "soul mate" feeling. My husband swears he has never touched another woman - hard to believe. The emotional affair/attachment he has with this other woman is painful beyond belief. I feel for you...its me again...isn't this cheatin??????