Hello I hope things are going better for you at this time. Sometimes the stress of holidays is too much for bipolar and depressed people to take, then they become ill or offset from the stress. It is no wonder when you think about holidays 2 months before they happen, and then stress up to that point. You may want to put in a quick call to your Dr Biiv because the Dr can change your medication dosage to help you feel better, during this time. There are also lights available for Bipolar and Depression as well, that can be obtained cheaply, and Insurance may cover the cost if the Dr will give you a prescription for the light. Take care i hope things get better for you soon. Sincerely Soidhonia