I feel like I have some addiction to him and I don't feel good about how we interact. There's too many mind games. Too much hot and cold. I know that if I really needed him in an emergency, he would likely drop what he was doing and help me. But I can't keep feeling tethered to him and unable to make a clean break. If he said to me tonight "I want you back" I would be soooo under his spell. But i think that's because I don't know what a normal relationship feels like.