Thank you so much. It is always nice to hear that people understand your feelings. I have severe abandonment and jealousy issues. I am starting to control my constant phone calls and texts when he is gone. I do good for about an hour or two and then my thoughts begin to play. I just know that he is with another woman who is not "crazy" and could treat him better than me. No matter how many times he tries to prove or show his love it is just not enough to fully convince me. I want to get people before they get me so I self sabotage in order to create the crisis that I want to happen so I can run away. One day at a time....just thankful that I can for once not play the victim and admit when I am wrong(sometimes lol). Thanks again for the kind words