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Originally Posted by sabby
SideCrow,
I can understand why it's confusing for you to consider that this man is a danger to you. But, let me ask you this....if you felt that nothing was wrong, you would not have posted about this correct? Evidently, there is something within you screaming at you that this situation was wrong and that you needed some support to give you the strength to make the best decision possible and that would be to stay very very far away from this guy.
He is a well versed manipulator and abuser. He KNOWS exactly what he is doing as compared to you having very little knowledge about what he's doing or at the very least, refusing to let yourself believe the worst about him, and I will bet dollars to donuts, you refuse to listen to your own gut feelings about him as well.
He has done this many times to other women. I guarantee this as he has perfected his manipulation and it worked on you. Please do not kick yourself for this, he knows how to pick the women who will question themselves instead of questioning him.
I am not saying all this to hurt you or your feelings. I am really concerned for YOU and don't want to see you become another statistic. If this was a match made in heaven, there would be no question and no confusion about what happened. This is anything but a match made in heaven hon.
Please do what is best for yourself and keep yourself safe and abuse free from this guy. Think calmly and listen to your inner self/your gut and take measures to insure that this won't happen again. You owe it to yourself and those who love you to take care of yourself. Anyone worth having is worth waiting for! He's just not it hon.

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Thank you for this kind reply. It made more sense to me. I mean, Yes, I understood other responses, but only insofar as "this isn't good" and what I need to know is a clear explanation, as in, "this means he is a sexual sadist" or "this means he might have a problem controlling an urge to choke you out" or even "this means he is on the border of thinking what it would be like to see your life drift away." You know what I mean? But yes, you are right, without those concrete answers, all I have is the Thing tugging and biting at me saying it's a little bit scary and I feel absolutely controlled. You are correct. In fact, the first time I said "No" to him [months ago], he told me outright, "I've never had this problem before. Nobody has ever said 'no' or given me this trouble like you are."
Yes...it's true...you are right. Even before we split, I found myself with anxiety about when he would come through the door, even though I wanted to see him. At one point I hid my car so he would not think I was home and then I bolted the door and jammed the bottom lock hoping that his key would not go in and he would not be able to enter. But as I said, he is a law enforcement officer, and he found my car and opened my locks using something, he told me later it was a credit card. We were not fighting...as I remember I just asked for a little space. But I could not understand why I was so shakey and anxious for him to come here when we weren't even fighting. I just felt afraid and I didn't know why. It was long before he put his hand around my throat.
After the locks failed, I started anchoring a chair in front of the door if I didn't want him to come here. But then we would have perfectly fine, loving days, too.
Sometimes I think I just want someone to tell me that I am over reacting and everything is fine.