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Old Jun 24, 2013, 05:17 AM
StephanieEas StephanieEas is offline
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I really need someone else's opinion and any tips on a situation that I'm in.

I'm 23 years old and I live with my parents, who are, in my opinion, very controlling. Growing up we already had a lot of rules and routines that both my brother and I had to stick to (no cartoons, no potato chips or soda on week days, stuff like that)

I have always been a very obediant child, also as a teenager, I always did what my parents told me, I always stuck to all of the rules, but right now I feel like that's working against me because, even now I'm 23 and I want to make my own choices and do my own things, I'm still under their control.

I am still not allowed to eat potato chips and drink soda on week days, my parents constantly check what I buy with my own money, and I have to ask their permission first before buying something at all or I'll most likely get yelled at. I want to be a vegetarian but my parents don't allow me to.

When I started college 4 years ago I wanted to move out and move into a student home closer to school, but my parents wouldn't let me, so for the past four years I have been travelling by train for 4 hours every day for school and it often means I have to get up at 5 am in order to get to school on time. Also I really feel like I missed out on a lot of what is the student life because of that.

All the time my parents check where I am, what I am doing, where I am going.A week ago my father yelled at me because I had gone to school that day without telling him that I had class, so he didn't know where I was and when I got home he was angry.

Because my mother is chronically ill and my father is on a long term sick leave they are both always home, they are always around me and it's driving me crazy. I just really need my own place and my own routines and make my own choices. When I'm sitting on the couch reading a book my father is often sitting across from me just looking at me. Also he constantly checks what I eat and makes comments like "that fat butt of yours isn't going anywhere" whenever I eat something unhealthy (I am a healthy normal weight, by the way and I run 3 times a week).

My father is just always making hurtful and insulting comments on my weight on the things I'm passionate about, on the fact that I'm a bit of a nerd. He always makes me feel like I'm not good enough for him.

My therapist told me I just really need to move out, but financially that's not an option right now (I am saving money and working to make moving out possible, but also I am on a waiting list for a rental place, but I'll most likely have to wait for another 2 years).

Does anyone have any tips on how to deal with my parents and how to manage my own anger and frustration with the whole thing? I feel so crowded by my parents. Talking about how they make me feel doesn't work by the way, I have tried that often, but any talk related to feelings in our house is quickly dismissed, ridiculed or joked about.

(I'm sorry this turned into such a long rant, but I just really need other people's point of view on this.)
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