I don't think you're racist. WHY these thoughts are entering your head is beyond me. Perhaps it is the way you were brought up to believe, but you rejected those teachings. You can't help it if those thoughts come up out of nowhere. What you CAN help is feeding them -- of continuing to think about them because they are TOXIC. When you have these thoughts, just immediately think of something else. DON'T continue to think about them. It is sick thinking like this that keeps our country 'back in the dark ages.' If we're going to move forward, we need to drum out this kind of thinking.

Best of luck and God bless! Hugs, Lee