Every now and again self-analysis rears its ugly head, where I have to analyze my actions to ensure that I am not going into a manic episode. It can be tiring. Sometimes I just want to be. It's like I have to be able to distinguish that fine line between being happy, and being manic. My psychiatrist says that manic episodes do not just happen--there is usually a gradual build up which stems from a trigger. So I basically have to get to know myself and know the triggers. With medication management and learning my triggers, I can now just be without questioning myself too often. I am also more mindful of potential triggers and stressors (which I have come to realize can either be good or bad). I am happy to say though that the last manic episode I experienced was four years ago. However I do have bipolar disorder and can never be too complacent. Every now and again, I still go hmmm am I going into a manic episode?...and then the analysis begins.