6 men just left my apt. Contractors to clean the windows. Last year there were only 2 men. I am trying to chill out.... they have been gone about 5 mins... but that fight/flight thingy will not shut off.
It was definitely made worse when they cracked one pane of glass. When I just went to put the shades just right, put the windows up for the fresh air, 2 windows will not stay up now.
Called the apt manager... she says will do a work order. I hope they can take care of this soon. The regular maintenance guys I feel comfortable with.
But I feel like my place has been violated... all those men. I am gonna smudge the apt see if that helps.

just smudged, noticed they put a good sized hole in 1 of the screens! ... and the thought that they were in my bedroom.... made it worse.
Need to reclaim my safe place. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh