At Critter Lake with hubby & all the kids and their SO's. I went to get my fishing license yesterday and it's a steep walk up to the cabin. My bad leg gave out and I fell and made it much worse. So I've been relegated to the cabin and deck. They others are all out fishing off a boat. It's still nice to get away though, a change and change of scenery, as I live in suburbia outside a big city. The deck is tree-surounded but isn't far from the lake so I can see it.

I saw my pdoc last week. I have treatment-resistant depression, and of about 25 AD's I've tried, none have ever really worked for me, except Zoloft for a time about 15 years ago, and then it mostly made me numb. So we discussed my trying an Emsam patch, which is a method of delivering an MAO-inhibitor-type AD. I knew about them for a long time and that many people who've tried just about everything often respond to this class of AD. Of course there is a downside and a reason they're usually a very last resort - they interact with certain foods and OTC medicines in a way that can be extremely dangerous. A bad interaction can cause blood pressure to rise so high that it's fatal, or causes a stroke.

The Emsam patch though, at a low dosage, avoids most of the food interaction, since it doesn't go through the gut, but through the skin, bloodstream, and to the CNS. I was really hoping to try it soon and put surgery on my leg off for a while, because you can't be on it and have surgery (most anesthesia reacts badly to MAO's also). Not looking likely now but I have to play it by ear.

I've also been telling myself for a long time that I need to start taking better care of myself. Should have started riding that recumbent bike at home again, then my muscles would've been stronger in my leg & I might not have fell, should be eating healthier even if it's a lot more work... all hard to do when depressed, but when I was exercising faithfully in the 00's, I could scramble up a 15-foot pirate rope barefoot, no problem, or ride my 10- speed on 25-mile bike trails. Even three or four years ago I still could ride them. I have to try a lot harder on this, even if it takes baby steps to begin...