I pushed someone away that deserved to be pushed away a long time ago. I'm really hurt by it and I truly feel lonely and scared. I have no money, no medical, I live in a home I can't pay bills and right now I need help and I don't have my counselor that does my counseling pro-Bono. Life sucks! So I thought of coming here. Yesterday, I went onto a dating sight already. I being risky and I guess that is what being BP. Wow, I am so scared!