Hello everyone, I hope you're doing okay.
So this thing started in the beginning of the school year (which happens in March in my country). I'm fifteen and I'm going to be a freshman next year, because I failed one year and stayed home last year because I was way too anxious to leave home without having a panick attack and almost dying.
So yea, I finally decided to go to school again and have a normal life. I'm going to night school, which means I can finish 7th grade in 6 months and then 8th grade (last one until high school) in other 6 months. Next week should be my last week in 7th grade, but I think I'm going to fail again because I don't show up at school - because of anxiety!
I'm tired of doctors and medications, because they make me numb and weird. So yea, but I was pretty confident at school until I met this guy, he's something like 16 or 17 and he's my classmate.
He smokes, drinks and does drugs and keeps teasing all the girls at school. But the girls like it, they LOVE it when he and his friends make sexual jokes about them. So he started to make those jokes about me too. All of his friends call me his girlfriend, but I'M NOT. I don't even know his freaking name.
I already told him to stop because I makes me uncomfortable as hell, but he just laughs and says "I know you love it". It's making me depressed again and I don't even want to go to school anymore because everyone keeps staring at me and laughing, asking sutff like "hey, where's your boyfriend?".
I know he doesn't do that because he thinks I'm pretty or because he actually likes me, he does that to every girl because he thinks we are just a pair of boobs and someone he could have sex with and nothing more. And also, I hate it when people stare at my body because I used to have an eating disorder (which started when I started to "grow up", like my body started to change and stuff, and the other girl's bodies didn't, so I stopped eating to lose weight, especially from like my thighs and stuff)
I'm afraid he could try and do something with me, because he is bigger and stronger. And I'm afraid of actually talking with teachers and such because they're going to talk to him and he is going to like trying to get "revenge" or something, since he is always drugged.
I'm NOT going to tell my parents because they're going to be all like "Wow, you're 15! You should get used to sexual things!". Also my mother says I'm overreacting and being "dramatic" with this whole social phobia thing - and she knows I've been to a lot of doctors, therapists and stuff.
I'm afraid of losing antoher year of my life because of those people, what should I do?